The most ever present battle in my life is currently my struggle with myself. Although more recently I’ve been trying to change my thought patterns. I tend to catastrophize most situations and I end up making a small problem into a huge problem. In trying to change my thoughts I am constantly stopping myself and asking if this is really a big issue.
For example… My boyfriend currently lives at his aunt’s house (moving this week, yay!) and since he’s been living there I have felt very uncomfortable. I feel like his aunt gives me dirty looks every time she sees me in the house. She has also watched Tom and I as we were in the kitchen to make sure we weren’t eating her food. If she’s talking to someone or is on the phone, she stops talking the second I enter a room and watches me even if I’m putting on my shoes to leave. I always feel like I’m being confined to Tom’s room. So when Tom told her he’s moving out she said that she feels like I’m the one giving her dirty looks. It troubled me most of the day but after awhile I realized I don’t care what she thinks, she won’t be part of my life anymore.
Other times it’s more difficult to distance myself from the situation enough to see that I’m worrying over something I shouldn’t be investing my energy into. It may be a constant battle, but I feel as though I’m making progress. So here’s to staying on target!